I'm no Dorothy Hamill
2004-01-23 - 8:40 p.m.

Today was all around a pleasant day. I had to do tedious jewelry work, but it has to get done if I want to make money and its more like need to make money now.

I'll only get about $6 back from my disability check again this month and I have about $10 in my bead envelope which is only used to buy beads...which I need to buy more of. Oh well, it'll be provided; it always is. God is cool like that. It happens all the time with my family, usually when my mom is frazzled with the finances. She'll be fretting about paying the $450.45 hospital bill because she only has $350.00 and then the next day she'll get an anonymous card in the mail with $100.45. Thats just an example but things like that happen to my family all the time, and have since I was little. I take it as Gods of way telling us not to worry about such things because he always provides, and its true.

I've been missing things lately. I do it to myself though when I let my mind wonder to dangerous lands. The lands of "I just wish" and "If only". I wish I could just go. Thats what it comes down to. Just having the freedom to stand up and walk out of the room when I want to. To pick up my keys and drive somewhere on a whim. To visit a friend for a few days in a different town. To just be able to GO. Yeah, I'll snap out of it eventually.